Well i think i may have got it. just gonna keep going til i've had enough and head off to bed as its very late/early here in NZ.

This is going to basically be a bitch page for for me. Since i dont like talking to too many people and i like to keep my thoughts to myself, i figured this would be better in the long run. I know that eventually the kids will end up adding to this. That's up to all of them if they want to. I know that this will help me cope and handle the heavy stuff that will eventually come. No one is looking foward to that. NO ONE!. It's going to be a long hard slog. But nursing the ill to the end isnt easy. It's bloody hard.

I watched my eldest daughter and son in law as well as the rest of that family, nurse their husband, dad, and father in law until the end. I was with them the day before, as it was my girl's 20th birthday. Sad atmosphere around the house that day. TOO quiet for that household. We all knew that he didnt have long to go. we were waiting for him go. Even told him that it ws ok to leave. he hung in there waiting for a friend to arrive. When he heard his friend, he went quietly. Very sad, hard, I didnt know what i could for my girl.

Now she will have to go through it again, this time with her step dad.

Hey there, I'm new at this. So bare with me til i figure out what i'm doing. :)

I wanted some where to write stuff that couldn't be saved on my computer. Thearapy I should proberly go find a site that has can help get throught he dtuff that' going to happen to my family from till whenever the happens to be. 2 years we were told, maybe sooner if he doesnt look after himself of doesn't ltake the advice of the doctors. That includes specislists who know what they are doing. Or at they should know what they're doing since it was a surgeon who stuffed up in the first place.
What an arsehole!!